I feel fairly certain that 2008 has officially been named the ‘year-that-the-important-people-in-my-life-hurt-me’. It’s as if on January 1st I handed out axes to all of the people that I cared about and one by one they are swinging at my trunk. I’m barely standing and I don’t know how many more hits I can take. If I learned from my mistakes I’d probably put less trust in others, but I guess I’m not mature enough for that.
To all of those I have lost in the past year: for the record, I miss the relationship we once had. I miss the intimacy that we shared and our friendly interaction. I guess on the bright side of things, loosing the important people in your life leaves just that many less people close enough to hurt you.
That’s disgusting.
Life stopped screwing me over. Things are good again. I’m tired of wasting time and energy into being negative and resentful. I have to waste my time with meaningful school work now. xoxo
Filed under: change, happiness, honesty, hope, life, love, relationships, relfections, thoughts, truth
I have so much hope for the future its childish and naive, but endearingly so. Life is going to stop screwing me over this weekend, and I’m really excited about that. I can’t seem to get the taste of Root Beer and Admiral Nelson out of my mouth, but once that goes away I believe anything else bad will as well.
She pulled me in close and brushed her lips against my ear as she said, “Did you know this song was playing the first time we kissed?”
No, I didn’t. And I didn’t want to know that.
There’s this saying ‘Fool me once, shame on you. Fool me twice, shame on me.’ I’m pretty sure that describes my life.
Filed under: alcohol, college, confession, culture, decisions, friends, friendship, happiness, hindsight, honesty, life, lust, relfections, secret, thoughts
Lately, I have been living by the mantra of ‘don’t take life too seriously, nobody gets out alive anyway.’ On the other hand, I think I’m kind of over doing stupid irresponsible drunk things. But I’m going to two parties tonight and it is spring break. I’ve coincidentally been living by the mantra ‘c’est la vie’ as well. So I’ll let life take me where she will and I’ll deal from there.
