J9

I’m almost a lot of things.

Almost old

Almost young

In fact

I’m almost six feet tall.

.

I’m almost impressive

Almost honest

Almost a thief

I almost stole your heart

And I almost broke it too.

.

I’m almost gay

Almost straight

Which makes me

Almost accepted

In either populations

.

Yeah? Well… almost isn’t good enough.

Several months ago I wrote a letter to a friend that I had promised I’d send the year before. I apologized for being so reckless and irresponsible with her emotions and I apologized for being so god damned inconsiderate. I tried my best to reply to her requests, as she said she ‘wanted to know everything’ about my life. In attempts give her the ‘everything’ that she desired, I told her how I’m almost a lot of things. I almost fit into a lot of categories. I was discussing two categories in particular when I said:

I feel like I don’t really fit into either, so I dance in and out of them both as much as I can get away with. I know that makes a lot of people uncomfortable, but I’m not here to make others comfortable. I don’t know why I am here, but I know it’s not for that.

And that’s how I finished the letter. Very open ended and unconcluded, which I suppose is the exact characteristic that almost includes me into a lot of things, but can’t guarantee me a definite place to stand anywhere. I guess I’ll have to work on that.